UPDATE (Week of the 20th)

As I start this new week I look back at the past week to see my progress. I'm still battling with time management. Finding the time and using that time wisely especially as I start up my courses for my MBA is going to be important.
At the end of the day I feel my progress will really hinge on my discipline to do the things I need to do when I need to do them regardless if I like to or not. I have a solid plan, and its all mapped of for me so just do it. So building my discipline and breaking myself of bad habits that distract from my progress is going to be key.
With all of that being said here I am Monday night getting it done and I must tell you it is really getting exciting. Just imagine how exciting its going to be when 90 days is up and my dreams are coming to reality damn man they can't stop me... CAN YOU FEE MY SWAG GROWING?

KEEP IT GOING

Saturday night I spent it sending my good friends Rich & Malina off, who are moving to Hawaii. As the gathered guests mingled we shared stories about how we met the two. I recalled how I met them and how they helped out with my first two shows. In many cases, the story would go they met at work, they went to school together, or I met them through a friend. Every time though I heard a lot of people saying things that paid the couple a great respect and honor. As I took it all in and met some new people I was glad to have met them both and if any of the people I talked with that night can come through and do half of the things I did with Rich & Malina the rest of 2009 is gonna just get better.  I'll miss you Rich & Malina, you've been a great addition to my life knowing you both I'll miss ya enjoy Hawaii.

LETS HEAT IT UP

MY 90 DAY BLITZ

Well it is now two days into my 90 day blitz to achievement of some goals I have place for myself and I don't know how I should feel? 3 months can seem very long, but I know when things start to pick up, it'll be gone like that. So I do need to stay focused and look at each day for what I can accomplish. There are so many distraction around me right now, with the crazy economy, to the staff that is helping me out makes it even tougher as I am forced to spread my self out to keep the order. This is where discipline comes in to help you stay focused and keep motivated. Someone told me discipline is 'Doing what you should do, when you should do it, whether you feel like it or not.'" And as I take that to heart in search of accomplishing my goals I look to make some drastic changes that well may ruffle some feathers, but at the end of the day I feel it is the right move to help me on this 90 day blitz and making some real progress. I'll keep you up to date on my findings and my state of mind as I attempt something that if all goes right will change my life forever so stay tuned.

HOW TO CONTROL YOUR FOCUS

SOMETHING ABOUT LIFE

HOW I STAY MOTIVATED

CHASING THE DREAM

I realized something today, what I realized is that my dream is a product of my talents and skill set. I mean along the way I've had many strong desire to become certain things in life. I once felt it was my destiny to play in the NBA or Major League Baseball, but physically that never materialized and I got left behind by those that had the physical talent. My point in this brief posting is that we can never know what we are meant to do or become. Its all a feeling, which is where intuition is so important, and understanding it can help you can better "know thy self".

Yet at the same time look at the things you are good at. Are you a fix anything kind of person, do you like to cook, can you read and write music? By looking at these things you can look to jobs or opportunities where doing any of these things will be involved. For me I have always been creative and could draw. So I looked to develop my skills in those areas learned from those before me and I never stop learning. And now the more areas of influence I have the more adaptable I become, which leads to longevity. And to me your Greatness factor is dependent on how long you've been around and how many times you've reinvented yourself. And it all begins with a dream.

LETS BE GREAT.

MIND CONTROL

The past few days after reading the timeless book Think and Grow Rich I have set out and applied the teachings to my life. I've built a plan for success that I recite each morning and every night before I go to bed. I'll post this plan once I have finalized it. Anyways the point of this post is that in the book Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill, it discusses the way to developing success in ones life. One of the tid bits that I found super interesting was that of all the things we can control on the journey to success is our thoughts. And that although it seems fairly easy think about the span of a day how many times do we let negative thoughts creep in and distract or detract from the progress and accomplishments we may have gained. I know for myself that it happens on occasion and I believe it will be a battle for awhile until I get into such a groove that nothing will stop me. As an artist I know that many of my projects start with a vision and as I go through the steps to creating that vision and making it a real thing I must stay focused on the end product. And yes some things may change or it may not come out exactly as I had envisioned it, but it is now reality. And that is how the controlling of our thoughts can shape our lives. You want success in your life focus on the positive, envision each and every aspect of that life or lifestyle and never let doubt or negative thoughts keep you from believing you can have that, because what the mind can conceive the man can achieve. So lets keep our minds on the positive and check ourselves when we begin to drift off. LETS DO THE DAMN THING!!!

Droppin' In

Understanding that this isn't the beginning of the month I'm realizing that to achieve anything action has to be taken. I have some goals I'd like to achieve for myself and my future and that takes action. I stumbled into March and already a week in I gotta do what it takes to achieve. As one of my friends said it best I gotta be HUSTLIN' HUSTLIN' HUSTLIN' HUSTLIN'and HUSTLE some more. So this one is a short one folks, but understand its all about the action and that is the mind frame I'm in so I can be shining.

WELCOME BACK

Well its been a minute since my last post and as much as I didn't post you must believe your boy kept at it. Had my successes, had my set backs, and fucked over days. I'm still here, and I'm still looking to be the success I have envisioned in my mind eyes. In the time off life has given me some interesting realizations that only through the guise of time they would not have been revealed. I never knew much about my Dad's upbringing or his personal views or philosophies on life. When I was kid I did a I was told and as grew older and rebellion set in I began to question my Dad as I began to questioned life. The point I'm getting at as my Dad just turned 70 on March. 5th (Happy Birthday Dad) is that as an adult my view of my Dad not to mention, how we relate to each other has changed. As a kid he was my guardian, the one in charge of my actions, the one to care for me. Today, as an adult our interaction has evolved, but it has developed into a strained relationship, at least from my view as I try to reach out and create moments where we can bond in another manner more suited to our progression in life. All I find is indifference and unwillingness to share or join in. And as much as this is a blog on my dream realization for 2009 I believe a better relationship with my Dad should be a part of that as well so that is why the post here. Any thoughts or suggestions please post. ONE LOVE

Shining Light

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, creative, talented, a visionary? Actually, who are we not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in all of us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

A little thought from a friend.

Where I've been

With so much excitement with the new year, Obama inaugurated in as President, and the looming danger of the U.S. economy. There will come a day when none of this will matter. It still may hold some significance, but it will never be as important as it it was when it was just happening. I look at my life and all the things I've been through from losing loved ones, family and friends. To my own loss of using my legs. To proud moments like graduating a University, or building a business. The pain and joy fades over time, but there is a seed in all events that tell us who we are and depending on how that seed is interpreted and acted upon determines how that memory will be remembered. Be it painful to think about or if it gives us a good feeling all over. And as I set out on this year long journey to find out who I am through who I want to be I want this day, this seed to say here is a man with a burning desire to reach for the stars and make his dreams reality.

INTRODUCTION:

As an artist I have learned many things. For example, perspective, color theory, the dynamic of a camera lens, and that no two people will see the figure of the figure model the same way. The greatest tool I have ever learned as an artist is that of visualization. So many times while working on a project I have sketched out pages of ideas or notes for myself on what the final product would look like. And many times from the beginning to the end setbacks and stumbling blocks set in, but no matter how difficult if I push through it with the vision of what the end will look like and I find I always succeed, and my vision is completed. Which got me thinking, lets try that same method to developing a project to my own life. Sketching out every aspect in rough draft ideas, honing them down to a finished product. And in doing this for one year, God willing, will be a truly self realized new me. This is my quest, this is my journey, this is my DREAM REALIZATION.